Wasted Tears
If I could catch and count my tearsHow many would there be?
But not just that,
I fear to know
How many cried for me?
To make a list of reasons cried
How senseless it would seem
I know my heart,
Self-focused ways
There runs a common theme.
My selfish woes lash out with tears
Screaming that it's not fair.
My heart's desires,
Longings thwarted
Selfishly unaware...
Forgotten people span the globe
With truth nowhere around.
But here I weep
Thinking of me
While they're lost and not found.
Children dying, mothers crying
Or children left behind
And I complain
My aching heart
Don't I see it's unkind?
Terror in foreign, distant streets
Still I bemoan my life
What I don't have
Where is my heart?
I'm a stranger of true strife.
And so I'll aim to feel and know
Possess a heart that hears
To change the world
Starting right here
No more wasted tears.
by fcm ~ 12 August, 2005
Note: This has been about a month in the mental development stage, ever since I met with people from South Africa who spoke of the tragedy and devastation of AIDS in Africa, and in daily hearing about what people suffer and face around the world; and as I have repeatedly come to the end of myself and get so tired of the battles in my heart that are quite selfish, when God calls us to look not to our own understanding, but to trust Him, and to go into all the world for the sake of His Name and His glory. To weep for the things that He weeps for, to be broken for those things that break His heart, to be wholly His servant to bring the hope and truth of Christ to a world dying without Him - that is not a wasted life.
posted by FaithChristine @ 13:28
3 Comments:
Does Jesus Christ cry tears of joy in heaven as He sits next to His Father? If so, He may be crying now....to be so filled with joy that another human being gets "the big picture".
Crying over the things He cries about...now that's a life worth living.
Great poem Faith!
Maybe I am reading this wrong, but don't ever think for a moment that your griefs are not as important to our heavely Father as any other. He cries with you too and cares about your stuff. If you NEVER thought of anyone else, now that would be selfish, but that is definitely NOT you!
You didn't choose to be born in America... God put you here. It IS important for us being so blessed to use our resources to minister to the rest of the world, but we have needs too (even as blessed Americans) that God wants to meet, and will.
I pray that God will bless you with ALL your heart's desires AND use your willing and sensitive spirit to minister mightily to people in need around the world.
Bless you!
after last week's teaching at Mars (on solitude), i've actually resolved to spend LESS time in solitude because i realized that after too much time, solitude can lose its momentum and become selfish. after too much time, my consciousness becomes like an ingrown toenail in my soul (gross). and so instead of spending time in solitude to the point that i curl inward on myself, i've resolved to balance the inward and the outward movements, because we need both. for me this means less time focused on my own problems and fears and issues. perhaps the same is true for you based on what you've written here.
...i hope though that you can keep taking time to let everything inside of you out, because this is important too. god advocates healing, healing for the oppressed and for ...well, the oppressed...because we all are oppressed in some way or other, whether by hunger or tyrants or AIDS...or perhaps by our own fears. your tears are legitimate and normal and necessary, know that...
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